real.
vulnerable.
Katie once asked me in a long car ride in her 1990 hunter green pathfinder, "When you first meet someone, what is one adjective that you would like them to take away after meeting you?
Genuine.
I learned today that vulnerability is the core of shame and fear...but it's also the core of joy, love, creativity, and belonging.
The best times in this city has been the times when I did things that terrify me. The time that I walked to a random house I didn't know to meet a group of people that said they were all meeting up on the internet. We drank homemade sangria and talked about the qualities of our most intense and valuable learning experiences. All of them involved connection and experiential learning.
connection--vulnerability. vulnerability--connection.
I've realized that I expect ultimate vulnerability from myself and my lovers in relationships. So far it has led me to magic. Absolute grace and deep cocoons of reproducing butterflies from the deep.
But in my life my jobs my day-to-day breathing...I have not graced myself with such vulnerability
yet
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