Meat & Meditation

September 11, 2012
He titled this
"Finding your power in Motion"

The lesson came so fast and so clear I thought I got it before I began. My power is so small. My ability to move the universe was small and embarrassing, but it describes how I feel at this point. The motion came fast along with my power. For some reason, I'm struggling to write it down. It makes sense. My power is a ring and is black and metallic. At first I was dissapoined when I saw CJs ring because I don't want my power to resemble his. its some kind of ring. I keep dropping it. It falls out of my hands every time I pick it up. Because it falls I have to take a few steps to bend over and pick it up.
(I'm staring at it and the ground the whole time)

So when I stand I'm surprised to see the new place I'm in. I develop a rhythm and it feels like this power is leading me all over the wold. I'm chasing it
(my intuition?)

and it takes me to these new places. I did not feel in control of it at all. I had to keep bending down and picking it back up and every time I was surprised to see that it had taken me to a beautiful place and then I dropped it again. I got frustrated and when he did this super speed all I could feel was the

rhythm of drop, bend, pick it up, quick look up drop again...

I got frustrated so I opened my eyes and I felt an intense pressure on my chest which made me sit up really straight and my neck lengthened. I got the message that
I was the humblest of Queens.

Who picks up what she has dropped with no pride. I realized the gift of this is at a time when I feel powerless or confused, my energy, my source can lead me in a beautiful direction.

It is humbling for me to be Queen and not have control.